Sometimes, i wonder. How difficult a life can be. And how easy a life can be. When we fall in love, it gives u the most memorable thing u will hardly forget for the whole life. The world seems to turn beautifully, and the sun seems to shine perfectly. And when we meet him, the world is just 'you and me'. Isnt it sweet to think about that?
But when u fell out of love, you can feel how tensed it is when we're stress up about things. how the sun shines at u hardly, and how the world seems unfair to u.
And that is how i am feeling. I fell out of love and i feel like there's a burden following me around. Is it true? Is the memories that I onced treasured now became a burden to me?
Yeah it is.
It really hurts to think about u.
It really hurts to think about us, our past.
you and me. We thought we can make it. But we did not.
All the sayings were merely myths.

We know, from the start, sensed the difference between us. But we ignored it. we thought we could cover it up, and make it better. An that was the mistake. the mistake that i shouldnt have made, because of u. Because i love u and i want u, i made the wrong decision. I never regret knowing u. I never regret falling in love with u. I never regret doing anything with u. But i regret doing the mistake. If we dont just follow our hearts, we wont be this long and it wont hurt this much.
I knw, i hurt u too. some times, indirectly, i hurt u. And i am sorry about that. maybe unintentionally, i did it. But i never meant to. U know that. U knw how much u meant to me.

being with u was the best part of my life.
Knowing you was the sweetest memory i had.
Loving you is the beautiful feelings.
breaking up with u is the most hurtful thing u ever done to me.

Fly away all memories.
Please, don't be my shadow anymore.
I dont need u, like how i dont need him.
I wish i will get amnesia, forget about him, and start a new life.

Since 16 Dec 2009, since our last big fight for 5 hrs otp, I've decided...
to let u go.
to let my hands grabbing on ur finger, go.
to let go of ur heart.
to give up on you.

Find ur own way, the way u wanted.
And definitely, its not with me.

this is what u want all this while.
for me to let u go.
to stop contacting u.
u got what u want.
yeah, i lost the game.
I am the loser.
I dont mind.
Let the winner be the one i love.
Let u be happy in ur own way.

go and dont come back.