Can i be as bz as now forever?
so i won't have time to think about other things in my mind.
Can I do assignments forever?
So i will have time only to do reasearch and will have lesser time to think about social life.
Can i work as a researcher instead?
So I won't have any time to think about love life, you.

I don't know. seriously, i've been trying to forget about u. and i nearly succeed when u did not call me for several days. U said its because ur ppd is low, but i knw, deep down inside, u're helping me to forget about u. I don't have time to really think about anything else, except for my assignment and grp projects with the due date nearing. And at work too, i'm bz doing research instead of really working. Do u see how much effort i put in just to forget about u?

Yeah, my friends say u don't deserve me. I deserve a better guy than u. Even Nisha was shouting indirectly to wake me up. Literally wake me up. I did, but i still prefer to be in my dream. My heart refuse to wake up.

In the dream, it was u and me. It was only us. and we're still together like before. Like we never had been. We love each other. And i'm always praying the dream won't fade away. Too bad. dream is just a dream. It really faded away, when u say ur love for me has faded away too. I felt bad. I felt bad because i'm still dreaming of u. I'm still hoping for u in silence. I hate myself because i am still loving u. how i wish i can tell u that i have forgotten about u one day. impossible. really. I knw my heart.

I'm hurting terribily. I know u don't care, and i don't want u to care. let me console myself, like before. I'm used to it. kn?

I miss u. I miss u damn much. u're coming back tmr. and that makes me feel worst. I'm gonna see u, talk to u, sms u everyday. can i forget about u? i doubt so. And when i look at u longer than usual, just keep quiet and dont ask. I'm scared i might burst out crying.