Kidnap my heart.

and i'm so tired.

Tuesday, 30 June 200916:33

thinking about everything that happened, from school, it's just like a massive bomb exploded on me. What i want to achieve, what i hope for, what i dream of, everything seems to ruin in a split second just because of a newspaper article. Whoever i trust, whatever I hold on, turn into a nasty nightmare that keeps haunting me till nw, well, not only in my dreams, but in reality. I doubt that any of my friends..erm..LOYAL friends, do feel what i feel now. because of what happen, I'm all stress up and I just can't think of anything now. What is the right thing to do? find out about what really happen? or find out what this can lead to? or just sit down and keep quiet?

In whatever ways I try, everything seems to be wrong. I'm at fault in calling the Stamford College to find out, I'm at fault in replying Jasbir's mail. I'm at fault, even, in keeping quiet without doing anything. Seriously, everything has become a mess for me. and i hate myself for not even dare to look up on Jasbir.

So, what's the conclusion now? Run away from here? or sit back, relax, and watch whatever is happening? hm... headache2 now... really, its getting up my nerve. Well, i won't sit back. I will fight for my rights. that is where I stand.

and...I am so bladdy tired on what's going on. I am. believe me. Please. I need a break.

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