OMG!!!
I got my exams result and guess what?

Distinction for FUNDAMENTALS ON ECONOMICS
Credit for IDEAS & CRYTICAL ANALYSIS

I can't believe i pass the freaking exams! haha!
ok2..i was damn excited that i was shouting infront of my lappy yesterday night when i got my results thru email. =)

Looking for a part time job for extra income. -_-

yesterday went to Su's wedding at desa kartika restaurant in takashimaya. so cool to have wedding in town!
Anw, as usual, we did some history there.
Ok, while we were goin to take pics with bride and groom, AJ's bag hit the decoration stuffs infront of the seats while Nisha was infront there. and when the thing fell, Nisha was screaming. Can u imagine how the situation is like? LOL.
After that, Nisha was traumatised. haha. but i guess my friend will understand. She knw pretty well how kecoh we cn be. =)
so after that, we spent time at cineleisure. watched Alvin & the chipmunks 2. it was damn hilarious and funny. =)
After the show, we went to burger King to chill. because of my feet. because of my sandals that i bought 3hrs before. whyy? because my sandals came out and wore out. so had to throw it alrdy. and i spent like 69 bucks for the new pair? -_-

And after that, went to mummy's workplace. eat, and took my bro. me, my bro, frannie and nisha walk around ION. till ard 10pm, when we decided to go home. FINALLY! haha. =D
so yeah. reached hme about 11 plus. No more time to waste, bathe, put oilment on feet and zzzzzz....

Christmas party yesterday evening was fun! We took lotsa pictures and we fooled around till at night when I nd Nisha decided to go first at around 9pm. We played truth or dare and Heart Attack, which was really a heart attack! hehehe...=D

oh...the pictures are up in facebok alrdy. take a look! =D

tmr got my friend's wedding at desa kartika, takashimaya! ohh...i dont knw what to wear! oh dear...

tmr christmas party! yeah! can't wait to invade francine's house! shit, havent wrap up present for francine...-_-
yest was great! Seoul garden for dinner! haha..dont be jealous. so yeah..spent like 2hrs there. superb food. anw before that, met francine and nisha, who invaded my workplace. lol. from 130pm till 330pm, w crapped there like hell. so..while waitin for my mum... saw 2 aliens. Ash and Shoe. haha. ok2. they act as if they didnt see us. WHAT EVER.

ok2... update tmr then. tdy dull. nothing to do. no work. no sch. huhuhu.

It seems that i never learnt my lessons. I can't resist to go out with him. I can't stop from holding his hands and punch him and dragged him and kiss him.
I know i sounds stupid...no, i am stupid..hmm... i'll try harder..

anw, yesterday we met at j.e mrt station. pass him the meat, and we went off to IMM. got some food for my family, and we had a short date in Swensons. Had this nes seafood sambal pizza, and then a Milo Indulgement ice cream. we shared the food, but he payed for it. haha..
auuww...i still owe him a sakura/seoul garden meal. oh, and his shoes. oh my...

gave him the wallet yesterday. he said it was lovely. and he dont dare to use it. haha. i told him to use it by tonite because its expensive. how expensive? Nisha will knw. =)

BBq was nice yesterday. we spent like few hours just to start on the fire. haha. we tried several ways to do so. from the idea of burning newspaper to fanning up to using aloooot of fire starter, the charcoal won't burnt. urgh. until we have to ask thomas to rush down to help us ASAP. haha. thanks thomas, hero of the day! =D
So...real bbq start of at 6pm and i went home at 8pm. i knw..short hours. what to do. -_-
yeah,we bbq chickens, then fish, mushroom, nisha's compressed fishballs =D, and more stuffs. nice dinner. =)
pictures were taken aloooot. haha. frannie, upload it!!!!!
Looking forward for christmas. got a party at francine's house!
and 27 dec, my friend's wedding. we're all goin to invade her ceremony! =)
I think after being single, I spent more time with my girlfriends. =)

Oh, and just now, when i called adi and ask him when to meet him for the last time to give him his things and stuffs, he got angry with me. haha. what's that means? i dont want to know. I made up my mind. He's faded away from my heart. =)

Sometimes, i wonder. How difficult a life can be. And how easy a life can be. When we fall in love, it gives u the most memorable thing u will hardly forget for the whole life. The world seems to turn beautifully, and the sun seems to shine perfectly. And when we meet him, the world is just 'you and me'. Isnt it sweet to think about that?
But when u fell out of love, you can feel how tensed it is when we're stress up about things. how the sun shines at u hardly, and how the world seems unfair to u.
And that is how i am feeling. I fell out of love and i feel like there's a burden following me around. Is it true? Is the memories that I onced treasured now became a burden to me?
Yeah it is.
It really hurts to think about u.
It really hurts to think about us, our past.
you and me. We thought we can make it. But we did not.
All the sayings were merely myths.

We know, from the start, sensed the difference between us. But we ignored it. we thought we could cover it up, and make it better. An that was the mistake. the mistake that i shouldnt have made, because of u. Because i love u and i want u, i made the wrong decision. I never regret knowing u. I never regret falling in love with u. I never regret doing anything with u. But i regret doing the mistake. If we dont just follow our hearts, we wont be this long and it wont hurt this much.
I knw, i hurt u too. some times, indirectly, i hurt u. And i am sorry about that. maybe unintentionally, i did it. But i never meant to. U know that. U knw how much u meant to me.

being with u was the best part of my life.
Knowing you was the sweetest memory i had.
Loving you is the beautiful feelings.
breaking up with u is the most hurtful thing u ever done to me.

Fly away all memories.
Please, don't be my shadow anymore.
I dont need u, like how i dont need him.
I wish i will get amnesia, forget about him, and start a new life.

Since 16 Dec 2009, since our last big fight for 5 hrs otp, I've decided...
to let u go.
to let my hands grabbing on ur finger, go.
to let go of ur heart.
to give up on you.

Find ur own way, the way u wanted.
And definitely, its not with me.

this is what u want all this while.
for me to let u go.
to stop contacting u.
u got what u want.
yeah, i lost the game.
I am the loser.
I dont mind.
Let the winner be the one i love.
Let u be happy in ur own way.

go and dont come back.

from fri till today, i was at homestay in Kota tinggi, JB. fuhh... seriously damn nice scenery.
I got a real view of a village. A small village, eating kampung foods at the kampung stall... nice experience.
Sat, we went to crocodile farm. And its really satisfiing. hee... crocodiles from big to small... and w gt to touch andcarry 4mths old baby crocodile! so cutteee!
that night, went to watch fieflies. Amazing.
Anw... tmr exam! damn!

Yesterday, after work, met my gfs and Adi at Plaza Singapura. And i was super damn hungry lah. soo... they suggest McD, LJS, Burger King... but i'm nt approving any of it. no way!
McD - Just got it for my lunch
LJS - got it for my lunch the day before
Burger King - Anti. -_-

sooo...we decided on KFC. heeee...long time didnt eat KFC! =)

anw..after that, we went to clarke quay to chill. witnessed some bungee jumping and over-reacting/shoutings. LOL.
Haha...
we got these balloons... from this Santarina. whatever she was being called as.
and because the night was damn windy, 2 of the 3 balloons jump down to the river. and best part, everyone was looking at us because only us had the balloons. heh.
so, the last balloon was honoured to be put at the bush. hahaah.
I just realised we create some history yesterday night. haha. =D

But it was damn fun. we played BUTT SMACKING! LOL! Started by Adi who smacked my butt, followed by Nisha who continued and everyone was like trying to smack each other's butt. grrr....
I knw..we sounds wierd. haha. =)

I know, from the start, we are still the same.
you told me that ur love has faded away, but deep down inside, there's still love.
I know, u're forcing urself to stop loving me. And u say we have to fight it. We can't let feelings take over our mind. Between you and me, we know, there's a difference, which nobody else might understand. There's a huge gap that made us impossible to be back together again. I understand, but i still couldnt accept it. Yeah, i thought i was over you alrdy. I thought by dating someone else, I might forget about you. I convinced my friends that i have no more feelings towards u anymore.
But...
When our eyes meet, it came back. everything came back. I felt the feelings that i denied. And you confessed too. Im touched when u said, this is the first time u're crying with an ex-gf because of our feelings. yeah, we cried. our tears united. Alot of times, u said u were sorry for breaking up with me. Of course, what can i say. its ur choice and everything's done.
For 1 hr, we're emotional. We talked from hear to heart. I felt satisfied. I felt like we're back like before.
But...
U keep reminding me. Yeah, i know. U're trying to control urself. u're trying not to burst crying. But, i know u better. I know u inside out. ur eyes are red. and there's tears. And i know its ur dad's bdae today. and u're supposed to go KFC at 830pm. But u lied to them and said u're at Lavender when we actually are at skypark. I know u lied for me.

Thanks for the talk.
Thanks for the warm hug we had.
Thanks for the kiss.
Thanks for being there.
Thanks for saying 'i love u' again.

Today is the best thing ever happen since we broke up. we went home holding hands. =)

Yeah, today I met Adi for our date.

Planned to Toa Payoh, then Marina Barrage. In the end, we went to vivocity.
He bought tix for NewMoon at GVMax. heh. had to watch it 2nd time.

Anyway, we did had a good, long, emotional talk.
we really talked things out.

While sitting at SkyPark with our McD meals, we watched the sunset. and we watched ferries going in and out of the bay. We went out from there around 830pm.

woooaa...
Tmr gonna be my duedate for 1st individual assignment. how time fly so fast huh. anyway, no worries. i had it ready for past 2 weeks. hehe.
Now, i'm cracking my brain to do the 2nd individual assignment, economics. blueh! freaking tired of thinking lah! ok, whatever it is, have to get it done by today! coz due date will be thurs, and i wanna send it tmr too. gd luck to me.

Tmr, gonna have a 'break-up date' with my lovely ex-boyfie, adi.
I know, i know. we're wierdos. huhu. can't help it.

and the plan is, after work, gonna hand in my assignments, then to Toa payoh to meet him, wanna watch NewMoon again there, then goin to Toa payoh town park to eat. =) sounds lovely rite? if only we're still together... hmmm...

anyway,
PU3! wake up! do ur assignments rather than fbking! LOL! =D

oh, happy bdae to my dear girl, Nisha. at last, u're lovely legally 18. im gonna be 19 in like 2 more months! wahahaha!
Anyway Nisha, we all love u. especially francine and me. we know u can be mature enough to decide whats right, whats wrong. but whatever u doing, think twice aite. =)

okie, got to get goin with assignment! gd luck to me...again!

its raining heavily. so cold and cozy for me to sleep. hehe.
later, gonna go under my blk. shop vendor auntie's daughter married. will have dinner.
-_-

I find him wierd.
He changes his story always.
I dont think he suits me, or we are?
Imma so confuse.
He made me think.
and i'm bad at thinking.
Shall i continue with him?
Or shall i erase him from ma list?

Met my gfs, Nisha, Frannie, Dwi... and guess what? AJ is back in singapore!!!!!! =D

anw yesterday ate dinner at tongseng..usual lah..chicken rice..what else? hehe... then we crap with each other infront of national library...the stage... yeah..spent like 1hr talking stuffs. haha.. and they tried to dig as many secret as they can from me...about what? what else? bf lah! haha...

so yeah...yest was 1st day at work in wdlnds lib. boooooored. serious. boredom.kills.me.
anyone, entertain me please. =)
oooh...nisha coming later to kacau. hehe.