wow...
At last the weekend came. fuhh!
this wek is hectic mann. run here, run there. lol. =)
This week i gt sch and work. and yesterday had to rush to MICA, get supervisor's signature, and run all the way to UOB Plaza to send our timesheet. wah... 35/day x 11. =)) Not going to broke again! heee...

And nowadays.. Adi called me everyday. =)
Well, he sounds like he's still in Pasir Laba camp. The old, same complains. haha. used to it mann.
except that w can't meet. =(
Miss him alottt!!! ;(

hmm...2 weeks past by.3 more weeks to endure it. we will survive knknkn? =D
anw, tonite meeting frannie, nisha and jessica for halloween at sci centre! hope its as fun as last year at Safari seh! heee....
and tmr gt tuition. damn! urgh. tired2.

LOL.

Haha..i'm feeling wierd tdy. u knw whyy? because i'm doing research for my assignment. Hahaha! That's the last thing i really want to do mann. But i knw, I NEED to do it. haiya. If not, 3 people will kill me seh. =)

So, am doing bout ageing population in Singapore. wow... i'm impressed about myself LOL. I had printed out like 4 sets of journals and reports. and its really thick, i can say it. My printer was like crying for help. can't help it, sorry dear printer! =)

oh ya...yesterday nite, msn-ing with my gfs and ex-bf. we convo together2... till about 1145pm i guess. haha... funn! talked rubbish and stuffs.Hmm.. and went to TP yesterday. just to look ard and have McD as lunch with frannie and Nisha. =)

Just so u know, I miss u so much. More than u miss me aites. Hope u come back o homeland with the word i'm waiting for. ILY! =)

I knw..i promised to come..yet i didnt turned up. I am soo sorry about that. I hope u gals understand my situation. alot of things happening suddenly around me. I am so confused. What is going on here? am i in the right track or did i get into somebody's story accidentally?
I hope the friendship bond is still there, despit me being MIA always.
I love u gals. =)

today in the morning, Adi called me!
Haha...i was combing my hair, getting ready for work, when he called me.
Talked to him like 15mins. Its ok if i am late for work. I feel good after hearing his voice.
I feel like my life is back to 50% normal. LOL. =D
So.. we update about ourselves and blablabla..

work as usual. BORED!!!
For the whole 5 hrs, i read magazines and comics.. hehe...
Suddenly in the morning, one of my manager came down to take a look. luckily nothing happening and she's super nice lor. =)
Her name's Summer. serious. dont laugh. =)

and now at home.. in awhile more, gonna eat dinner. I had epok2 as my lunch. wa lau. i think when i'm working here, i wont have a proper meal for lunch lor. its ok. worth it i guess.

Muhammad Adika.
He's a person who will do anything for a girl who he love. literally everything.
He don't mind finishing half of his salary to the girl he love.
He don't care if he needs to lie to his parents, just to send her home.
He is a matured guy, but he can be childish and pampered when he's with that girl.
He knows what he's doing, but he can look blur sometimes.
He loves urban styled clothes, and will go gaga when he saw urban shops. =)
he's bad at hockey in timeZone. hehe...
He's great at bowling.
He don't know how to console somebody.
even if he does, that means he's forced. LOL.
He don't go for looks, but he likes to comment on people.
He likes to see sexy body gals, but he don't want to have that kind as gf.
He is a pious guy, but sometimes, he's uncontrollable.

I love him. We wrote a love story together before. and the ending of the story was 072009.
i wish we can continue from where we stop. because i love him.
He's in my heart.

today i started my first day of work. My title is librian, but it's more like exhibition guard seh. Just have to count how many people go to the exhibition, and check whether all the interactives ar working or not. thats all, and 35 bucks in ur pocket. =))
not tiring at all..bored..seriously.
today got email from Adi.. well...its very personal.. but it made me really diasappointed and sad. and he also communicate thru facebook. luckily, there's connection in the field camp. hmm...
i really miss him.
He dont trust me. he wont believe that i will change for him. He said there's no chance of us getting back together again. hmm...
I'm really down. I prefer to be with my friends at this moments, so i wont be alone and that will remind me of him. and that will just make me breakdown. so u can imagine how much tears i have wasted since he's gone.

At last, 18 oct 2009 did come after all. no matter how hard i pray, it came, and it didnt stop like how i hope it will.

And went for my first tuition class at parc oasis, Jurong east. the kids are not naughty. they still do listen to my instructions. Haha. cute kids they are. and then, rush off to airport. to send Adi to Wallaby. All the wy, i'm like praying...please stop the time... but it just won't.
When i reach there, his family members were there. so, went to his mum, and his mum like introduce me to all the other cousins and stuffs. embarassing lah. aiyo.

and at 2pm, he had to go in alrdy. so..we escort him till the departure immigrtion. urgh. it was a bad feeling. looking at the guy u love hug his cousins, and then his parents.. last but not least, me.. tried hard not to break down, but when one of his uncle tell me "Don't cry lah..", i really broke down. And Adi's ticket was alrdy torn. i knw he wanted to come back to me and console me like what he usually does when i cry, but he can't.
I never think of anything at that moment. I dont want him to go, but eventually, he had to. till his mum patted me, and we're like still waving and waving to him. onc he's done at immigration, he called me just to say stop crying. hmm... now..i feel sad again... haizz....
1 mth to wait for him. 1 mth without any calls from him. 1 mth without any fights with him. can i survive? I'm strong. yes i can. =)
D, i miss u now... i really wish ucanunderstand how i feels. But i knw, we're far away. But i knw, we're close in the heart, right? like u always say... =))

heartbroken again yesterday. because of 1 guy. because of him. because of Adika.
He hurt me. again. and again.
And its too personal to say the real truth. But, its something to do with a gal. well, a maid.
urgh.
i didnt knw selama ini he called somebody else sayang, except for me.
i'm thast stupid huh?
god. hold on to u now.

Don't be shock with the title. LOL. haha.

Yesterday night, went to WestMall to have another movie date with Adi. Well, don't think that we are back together again. Nope we have not. The right sentence would be: I dated my exboyfriend. LOL.

Anw, we thought of watching 500 days of summer at 3pm, but unfortunately its full. blady hell. again, i missed the show. sigh... and we change to an indonesian show, DARAH. It was..terribly awful. serious. and the popcorn only eaten half.

so, to forget about the awful scenes, we played games at timezone. Bowling and hockey! it was damn fun! especially when i won!! huahuahua!! and we played the bowling till the thingy stuck seh. wah, we're strong mann.

It was fun yesterday. Ireached home about 8pm, while he go back to his camp.
Whatever it is, love is still strong between us. It's just that.. we need time to commit again.
praying hard. =)

ok, yesterday was fun lah. hehe... but nt in the morning...

The day started off with 'Referencing Workshop' at campus at 10am. and it dragged till 12pm.. actually it was supposed to end at 1pm.. but.. we're too well-behaved..so yeah..
And then, was supposed to go to wdlnds and meet the rest there. But ended too early, I and Yana went for BrUnch at McD.. Had McSpicy..without vege, of course.=)
so..at 0130pm, Yana went first. I waite for the guy named Adika who doesnt come on time most of the time. and at 2pm, he reached cityhall mrt. we both proceed to wdlnds after Nisha screamed in the phone telling us to come on time. hehe, sorrie Nisha. muah!
well..between me and adi otw to wdlnds... everything' the same. I try nt to remeber him as my ex-bf.
And reached wdlnds. we proceed together to her house. at first, we just ate, watch hindustan film. Dhoom 2 i guess. ard 6pm, the guys had 2nd round.nd after that, we played Uno. Really had fun playing it though its been long time since i play uno. =)
And then, Adi sent me home to bt btk int. We went to Westmall for awhile. went to harvey norman, surveying gadgets, printing photos... cost about 10 bucks seh!
And so, we went to McCafe. Had some cold drinks. and we talked. And i gave him the rings i bought in JB, which is meant to be for our 8th mnth anniversary on this 22nd.
hmm... only I and Adi knws what we talked about last night. Its too personal. hehe.. =)
And at night, we talked again. Our usual late nights. But he lose!! He slept first at 1245am! LOL!
ok, and so that's it...

Looking for a job badly!!!

yesterday went to pick up my lappy. its a white lenovo S10 lappy at hougang. gd conditioned, impressed. hehe.
so, yesterday met Adi at cityhall. I felt so awkward. Its just like any normal days we dated before. the difference is we didnt hold hands and i try not to look at him often. I might just burst out crying. and that wont happen.
went to tong seng chicken rice to have dinner, walk to bugis junction, and went to Iluma, well, for the toilet only. coz its 630pm, and my class start at 7pm sharp.
He said i'll get used to this situation. Its not wrong for ex bf-gf to date with each other. yeah, its not wrong, but indirectly, he gave me hope, isn't it? and what if suddenly one day he say he found a new love? I just...can't think about that. For now, we each other know, we still love each other, but some differences between us just parted us away.

Stay strong, Putri!

back to basic. back to be single again. Its been awhilesince i felt pain in the hurt, but today, yeah, the pain was overwhelming. I tried to endure it yesterday. and guess, the pain isstill there.
He gave up.
He told me that we can be special friends.
He told me he couldn't see any future in our relationship.
isn't that hurtful?
Isn't that really hurts the heart when u still have high hopes on him?
I wish he hadn't picked up my calls, so i won't hear the word "break up".
I wish i was dead a minute before he said "break up".
i wish i turn deaf before he say "break up".
And how i wish god takes my life away yesterday night, so i wont have to endure the pain and tears won't drop from my eyes again today.
What should i do, dear God??

InTheVergeOfBreakingUp. OrWeHadBrokeUpYesterdayNight?

sigh. i dunno. i just dunno. what am i suppose to do? should i cry? or silent? or beg him? or smile?

What i know, my love is still for u, my life is all about u. up to u to believe it or not.
and i want the whole world to know, or whoever reading this, u guys are the witness:

I LOVE YOU, MUHAMMAD ADIKA BIN ZUKARNAIL!

tmr will be my first day at SMa. will i get new friends that's the same like my current friends idk. Well, at least, i have Yana and Dwi there. =) gonna be alrite, Pu3!
Anw, sorrie gals i cnt make it! gonna pop in for Azza's bdae party aite. sure of that. ;)

on friday, went to vivo with my working friends and Adi. It was the last day of work. and i'm quite sad of that. That means...

no waking up at 5am on monday onwards.
no getting texts from athirah saying she's late.
no getting call from azza saying she's reaching at 0830am.
not having to witness Raidah coming in so early.
no more spending my 5 bucks for the taxi.
no more getting pick up from athirah with a taxi.
no more wearing mask.
no more counters..or information counters.
no more getting scolded.
no more gettin shouted or scolding from public.
no complains from sisters in charge.
no more bitching about people ard us.
no more seeing cute guys.. especially athirah..=))
no more waiting for Robert and Rehab Centre.
no more waving to james.
No more "Syed"...

..itsn't it sad? to think all about this, makes me feel depressed. hmm.. anw, life just have to go on. gals, we still keep in touch aite. fb, hp. watever.

Whyy must people give me 2 bad news at the same time?? i just don't understand. urgh!

first of all, work ends tmr. the temperature screening ended abruptly yesterday. all of sudden. and tdy was sent to do stupid stuffs such as helping people with the SELF-REGITRATION KIOSK. and we end up running up and down the escalator, talking and gathering. lol. that is soo us.

secondly, Adi confirm going to wallaby on 18th oct. so near. its getting nearer. i'm afraid i might cry that day. or the day before. or 2 days before.

please time, for god sake, stop running on the 17th oct 2009.